TODAY was a veri unpleasent day of my life...
Ur may think is my fault...ok fine...forget it..went ur really noe wat is going on..ur would understand only if ur go through wat am i going through...but too bad ur r not...but it is good for you....
I didn't turn up for my CCA today as smth been happening to me ever since i turn up for this CCA after the exam when we go back to CCA...i dun noe why is this thing like that..i dun wan to say it out...wat is really this thing...but i only tell hu is veri close to me and understand how i feel wat is going on..
I wan to say sori to those hu called me...and i didn't pick up...i was trying to cool myself down as i couldn't...till now...still thinking...but instead of cooling down it some sort of get worst...now...
Ur may think i dun wan go is because i dun wan...but thr is smth...but is jus ur wan to noe it or not...or wan to put urself in my shoes...but i dun think ur will give a dam...cause i dun think ur hav time..ur might be hateing me or scolding me right now...i dun care...
But if i found out smth...i will stand up for my friend even if anything happen..jus like how my friend help me out..or i will be stupid enough to pick up the call...even if ur use my closest friend phone to call me...i still won't pick up...I noe hu call me and i noe why...i jus wan to give myself cool down for the moment..so i talk on the phone with my friend and tell him wat is going on..and he can say understand my feeling barh..not sure...at least i have someone to talk to and listen to me...while i am in anger...I noe ur keep trying to call me...i noe some of ur call me using other phone...like my senior using junior to call me..i noe that...i m not that stupid...u may think i would pick up...but i won't...till smth really tell me to pick up then i pick up...
Ur may think i m trying to escape...but everything happen for a reason..i dun wan go my cca i have a reason behind...jus i dun wan to say it out.. Ur wouldn't understan wat is going on...
in fact ur dun care...wat ur care about is her...(someoen remaind as private)
If she is so important...so do i...By doing wat ur did r ur trying to say or do...r ur saying losing someone is not important to u and it doesn't concern u...of cause it doesn't cause is not u...i tried explaning...but my explantion seem to fail...which get me more angry...why won't ur jus understand wat am i going through i noe ur have ur own hard time..i have my hard time too....
i noe wat is like to be the leader of the CCA i noe is veri stress...or smth like that...i get it...
i dun really mean to say all this...
but thr one more thing...do u have to really change ppl words and jus listen to 1 and forget about the others...and jus listen to wat ur friend have to say...wat about the others?i noe they are not close to u...but u at least still have to listen to the other side of the story...of wat going on...if ur dun jus forget it...Cause if ur lose 2 members...i dun noe wat will happen next...
cause i really hate ppl forcing me wat to do...HATE BEING FORCE...If this go on...jus move on without me...

With this words...really hope ur understand how i feel today...and pls dun make it happen again...i noe i have no right to tell ur wat to do...if ur r really so wat...jus contiune to force me to do thing...but hope ur understand and learn ur mistake
and if u say u wan to change ur att...pls do it...
thx

Cassandra Jean
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